my happiness doesn't depend on him anymore

He hurt me a lot. But it was something that I had to go through. If I hadn’t gone through it, I wouldn’t be who I am now. There was no getting around it. The pain was excruciating. But as I try to remember the exact same feeling I felt back then, I couldn’t anymore. The claws of pain and jealousy before was clutching and ripping my heart into tiny little pieces, but slowly as time passed by, I felt its grip loosen. Until I could no longer feel it. It lost its power over me. He lost his power over me.

For the first time, I feel FREE. My happiness doesn’t depend on him anymore. I have always imagined that I could never live without him. But I was wrong. Now, everything changed. My whole perception changed. There’s a little uncertainty in my future, like who I’m going to end up with, but I’m not worried about it. Not knowing is kind of exciting actually. The love I felt for him is still there, and I don’t think it will ever really die. But it’s not the kind of love that used to overpower me. Instead, it turned to the kind of love that acknowledges he was a huge part of my life and that I will always treasure the memories. I will always love him, just on a different level.

So for those who are brokenhearted right now, don’t despair too much. Grieve, but know that in time, you will be okay. You will be able to HEAL and MOVE ON. I was able to do it, so can you.